Wednesday, April 1st, 2009
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7:00 pm - Actually
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things are feeling better for me.
I just needed a bit of interpersonal boot camp.
mental military school for me.
woo hoo.
I bid you good day sir.
current mood:  optimistic
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Saturday, December 27th, 2008
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4:17 pm - hey all
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Things are well,
i'm enjoying my vacation quite a bit...playing a lot of video games, don't really know how to be of more help, I hope i am not coming off as an asshole.
i'm relatively quite happy, with the exception of a few irritations here and there life is pretty good right now.
my second grade still hasn't been posted...sooo we'll see what happens with that
otherwise there isn't anywhere else I would rather be spending my vacation than here so hooray to that.
current mood:  calm
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Monday, December 8th, 2008
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12:03 pm - World View Quiz
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| You Scored as Postmodernist Postmodernism is the belief in complete open interpretation. You see the universe as a collection of information with varying ways of putting it together. There is no absolute truth for you; even the most hardened facts are open to interpretation. Meaning relies on context and even the language you use to describe things should be subject to analysis.
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Tuesday, November 4th, 2008
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4:01 pm
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current mood:  anxious
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Wednesday, October 15th, 2008
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4:52 pm - halloween costume
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OK so I was gonna be harley quinn but i thought the costume was pretty lame once it arrived and I tried it on and everything so I think what i'm gonna do is:
I went and bought this really sexy goth outfit (short black lacy skirt, black stockings with bows on the top, a garter belt and a lacy headband) I have this perfect bowed black mesh off the shoulder top to go with it,
i'm maybe going to keep the harlequinn hat
i'm going to buy a new mask
and face paint
paint my face half red and half black with the white diamond on my cheek or maybe just go with the mask it depends
and wear the black and red gloves.
so my body is going to be just like sexy goth whatever but i'm going to have a harley twist to it, so it should be good hopefully however i'm broke till monday.
which means i prolly cant go to haunted forest this friday.
poop.
current mood:  tired
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Monday, September 29th, 2008
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11:03 am - awake
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Ok well I just woke up for real this time.
I'd better get ready for a brutally long week.
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Tuesday, August 5th, 2008
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10:45 am - One can only hope
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"Dear Megan,
Here is your horoscope
for Tuesday, August 5:
You are largely focused on one person today -- maybe a mate or a business partner, but it could be almost anyone. See if you can spread the love a little, but don't deny your instincts, either! "
I can only hope so seeing as my heart hasn't earned much in the way of trust as of lately. Damn, foolish organ.
current music: Kate Nash - "Merry Happy"
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Monday, August 4th, 2008
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6:51 pm - confused
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I dont understand how knowing what to do can be so fucking hard to figure out. It should be easy to know whats best for yourself and what you want...right?
wrong.
current mood:  disappointed
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Saturday, August 2nd, 2008
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9:57 am - irony
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life is ironic how it lets u slide on fuck ups and then beats you down when your good.
fuck.
im dying.
current mood:  crushed
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Saturday, June 21st, 2008
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11:03 am - yes...YES!!!
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Let the killing brigade commence!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
muahahaha
sorry i'm going crazy with internal rage.
boy, have I gotten good at containing it,
you'd only know if you paid special attention to the shakiness of my understanding words.
My voice kinda weeble-wobbles a bit.
Other than that.
Super sweet like sugar I am
Secretly inside
there are machettes and switchblades and katanas and AK47s and piano wire
and blood
and earth shattering screams
maybe even a few zombies.
God im weird
where do these things come from.
current mood:  crazy
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Wednesday, June 18th, 2008
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8:12 pm
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I'm at Jelly Belly's house just bumming on the computer...broke, lonely feeling sucky all around.
I have 6 cavities and I have to have all four wisdom teeth removed :(
My school shit is frustrating.
blah blah blah a lot of bullshit I dont feel like reiterating.
but you get the idea.
I disappeared off into the vast depths of a cave that is my boyfriend's bedroom for nearly a week!
It was fun we were all irresponsible and sex crazed and happy.
yay us.
Water contamination still affecting my work situation, we shall see if it's fixed by the morning.
It's going to be hard not to smoke cigarettes while at work.
But I believe I can do it, i've already begun retraining the way my mind thinks and it's getting easier.
Jason is going to go chill with his ex, Erryn (I think thats how you spell it) He says she is cool so maybe i'll meet her eventually.
Lots of things going down soon I think Jenn wants Jason and I to go with her to Canada sometime end of July or August...Road trip type thing...we shall see if it goes down.
current mood:  crappy
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Tuesday, May 27th, 2008
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9:47 pm - survey thing
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Have you ever showered with someone?
yep, of course
Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
no, he wasn't good for me, but I must say i've fallen pretty hard for the one i'm with now.
Do you smoke pot everyday?
nope, on occasion though
Last movie you saw in theaters, with who?
Iron Man with Jenn
Burger King or Wendy's?
Burger King
What time is it ?
almost 10 pm
What are you doing right now?
waiting for my bf to get home
Where do you think your best friend is right now?
Driving home or just getting home
Would you rather go to Tokyo or Paris?
Tough call, probably Tokyo
Are you listening to music right now?
Yep...the band Pretty Balanced - song - my mind is a box
In winter, would you rather wear jackets or hoodies?
Hoodies
Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
Maybe somewhere wonderful and exotic with my bf or another country in europe
Ever kissed a blonde haired, blue eyed person?
Yes
Who last called you babe/baby?
My boyfriend
Where did you last sleep other than your house?
My boyfriend's place
Where were you last night?
Same answer
How many pills do you take a day?
I used to take 2 now i'm riding free
Are you afraid of roller coasters?
Yes but i'm interested in getting over it...it's more afear of heights then of roller coasters
What would you do if your best friend told you they were moving?
I'd be sad but happy for them
Apple juice or Hollister gift card?
Apple juice?
What is/was your school mascot?
Cougar lol
At what age do you want to be married?
Maybe like 25
What should you be doing?
Ummm being sociable downstairs
Are you slowly drifting away from someone close?
I dont think so
Who can you tell everything to?
Jason, Jenn
Who was the last person you talked to on instant messenger?
I messaged a bunch of jenns boy toys to fuck with them
Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with a G?
I dont know nor do I feel like thinking about it probably.
What is the next concert you're going to?
Dunno maybe some industrial show jason wants me to go to
Can you play guitar hero?
Semi decently
What do you currently hear right now?
Pretty balanced the band and the washer and dryer
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Tuesday, May 13th, 2008
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1:25 pm - fuck-up
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I guess everything that I do is wrong.
no matter how innocent it seems.
I fuck everything up.
I can't manage the simplist of tasks.
or say the right things.
Sorry I ruin everything
current mood: crappy
current music: Giant - "Wicked Game"
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Sunday, May 11th, 2008
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10:18 am - Love, Love, Love
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I looovveeeeeeeeeeee
love
love
love.
and love makes me horny.
and happy
and high.
This regina spektor song, prisoners
makes me want to explode on the inside.
...it's really a good thing I promise.
My legs look so tan and muscular and sexy in this icon...but they're actually pale and not muscular.
o.o
bleh
current mood:  happy
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Thursday, May 8th, 2008
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11:45 am - once
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once upon a fractured stone
I cut my toe down to the bone
and what I had was not my own.
I got my raspberry mochas back at starbucks#@(*
woot.
current mood:  ecstatic
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11:44 am - Oooh
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golly gee wiz gee wilikers
life can be good sometimes...
sooooo good.
current mood:  excited
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Wednesday, May 7th, 2008
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7:49 pm - tennis
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Today I played tennis for the first time with my lover,
swinging balls and through it all I wasn't very good
but I found out about my mother
how she used to play
big bellied
me on the way
and I felt closer to her in the way that an infant does
and I felt closer to my lover the way that a scared little girl would
but i'm evolving
I can feel it in my blistered feet
the way my lover fetches all my overshot balls
and kisses me and makes the calls
I just want to be touched and loved
and caressed and hugged
or to roll around on dirty rugs
where you first found me,
kissed my fingertips
told me I could do it
and I believed you.
current mood:  accomplished
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Tuesday, May 6th, 2008
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3:09 pm - blonde
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I am a blonde again.
I feel reborn into my former self.
Innocent and yet corrupt
but not corrupt pretending to be innocent...if that makes any sense at all.
I want to peel off my skin and let you wear it
so you can touch your hands with mine and see what it does to me.
how I crave to part rivers
and play in your reflection
skulk in your shadow.
current mood: rejuvenated
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Monday, May 5th, 2008
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11:59 am - pretty things
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I made a wish on a dandelion seed puff thingy yesterday.
It was a good wish,
I think its coming true.
love, love, love is in the air and i'm dancing in it
barefoot in the grass
while my lover breathes breathless
and i'll capture his essence in a jar until it's mine
and i'll keep it safe within my heart
for good this time.
current mood:  loved
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Sunday, May 4th, 2008
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9:42 am - Shudders and Shivers
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I have never been in a place where I was just so confused and unsure of whether I was wanted or not. Usually it's pretty clear, and usually i'm not wanted to hang around.
But I am not the person I was.
I am someone better,
I love, burn, cry, and melt for you.
I wanna sew us back together.
like the ragdoll we're made to exist as.
xoxo
current mood:  scared
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